confunded

i am so confused. i dont know which way is up anymore. everything i thought was set is not.

what is real life? im living two lives right now. college and home. neither seem real.

since when did going to bed at 2am mean going to bed early?

my brain hurts. i feel like there is so much i don't understand.

why are you talking to me now?
i think i want you to stop.

who are you?

i love you.


enough of my rambling nonsense. i just dont know anymore.

today i made the analogy that my brain is like a murky swamp whirl pool filled with fish.

this is my third consecutive night being awake and on the Vern past 3 am with no intention of leaving anytime soon.

i often find that when i am listening to a song i pretend my life is like the one being sung about. this leads to interesting lifestyle arrangement when i put my ipod on shuffle.

while i am totally stressed out about classes and finals, i think i am handling it well and am generally in an optimistic mood. things in life aren't half bad.

i need to post more often. sorry you all, ill get better.

should i be a house proctor next year? i cant decide.

i should go back to trying to study.
live. love. laugh. peace.